I try not to write too many entries about how tediously in love with my husband I am, because, really who wants to hear about happy couples? But I realized something today as I slogged my way through a detailed subcontract scope of work. When I am bored or unhappy, I chant his name in my head. I don’t think about him or anything – I’m usually focused on whatever I’m doing. I just repeat his name in my mind, over and over. Occasionally even out loud and under my breath. That’s not the surprise, though. The surprise is that I realized why I do it.

It’s not that I miss him, because I do it even when we’re in the same place. I do it so I’ll have something nice to sustain me through my boredom, something sweet in my mouth.

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